Sunday, August 30, 2009
Man, something is wrong with me. So today I was at NTUC with my mother, and then she was looking at the dairy products, and I saw the cheese cubes thing? You know, that brand with the cow, where the cheese is in cubes, and suddenly I thought about Primary School again.
Like I think in P5 Chinese Class? There was this topic called 爱心午餐 or something like that? So 胡老师 told us not to eat breakfast, and instead make bread in school during Chinese class or something. And Isaac brought cheese cubes (I remember I brought bread, but not sure what Mel and Keith brought)...
Why do I keep thinking of the past?
I think something is very wrong.
Anyway I got over my emo-ness last night!
Hazel
{{chiming}}|*|1:57 PM
Saturday, August 29, 2009
I was reading this book, and the main character giggled. And that word, somehow, triggered memories. It was like...
I remember how I used to laugh uncontrollably and my father would say stop giggling.
Then I thought back about P6, and about HCL, and about my HCL group, and how happy I was then. I remember how Gerald always used to make me laugh until my stomach and face hurt from laughing too much, no matter what ocassion, what lesson, what mood I was in. The whole group could always laugh, and laugh, and laugh until the whole class was affected. I remember how we used to throw our ting xie books into the centre of the desk, and the last person would bring the books up. We would compare our ting xie and xi zi marks, and it may have been childish, but I was happy then.
I'm wondering what it will take for me to be happy again. It seems I haven't been really happy since I left P6 for Secondary School. Why?
Why can't I be happy for once? I can't stop thinking about P6, can't stop thinking about the times I was really happy, sitting there in the Oasis without a care for the world, laughing... couldn't stop laughing... compared ting xie... when secondary school seemed a life time away.
Dammit. Stop crying. My nose is starting to get blocked again.
Please god, if u really do exist, make me happy.
Ok, I noe I'm being unfair. Thousands of people in this world would kill to live in the conditions I'm living in now. I really don't know why I'm complaining, why I'm emo-ing around.
I feel pathetically lousy.
If I could turn back time, if I was given a chance... I would do it in a flash and alter the times I really wish I could change.
Mr Chang said on Friday what is done is done, and no one can change the past. I really wish I could. And even if I can't, forget the things I so desperately want to change.
I really hate my life. I really hate myself.
Why?
{{chiming}}|*|9:21 PM
AHH!
I hate my life man I hate my life man I hate my life!
Dammit.
I keep getting angry uber easily these a days.
MY NOSE IS KILLING ME. I AM SUFFOCATING. it's like some times it's okay. and others it's not. will it just make up it's mind and be OKAY?!
JIA LE D: D: D: D: D: D:
JIA LE D: D: D: D: D: D:
D:
Hazel
{{chiming}}|*|12:56 PM
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Aiyooo my self esteem has hit a new low.
How am I gonna catwalk down the world?!!!
*shrieks*
Anyway Zhen I should show u my sketchbook. Compared to Bella's its like a 5 year old kid's drawing to a professional artist.
No way am I gonna get in.
HISTORY PT.
I am so dead. But I don't feel like doing it somehow! But then tomorrow I have to memo Lit stuff.
I am sooooo DEAD.
I am getting repetitive in old age.
Hazel
Eh something is wrong with Blogger! I can't change font, font colour, etc.
{{chiming}}|*|9:02 PM
Friday, August 21, 2009
My blog is alive again!
No it isn't.
I just came on to check...
and also coz I was bored.
I'm resorting to playing Runescape. that tell u much about how bored i am?
ANYWAY ZHEN IM SORRY I DIDN'T NOE UR BDAY D:
oh yeah. tiff and bella wan Fashion Cluster too! :) but I don't think I will get in la anyway :D
Hazel
ERGHHH SAs. I don't think my right hand will ever be the same again...
{{chiming}}|*|8:33 PM
